How can I foster communion and participation in St. Mary’s Cathedral without living out those realities myself❓

I cannot say that I have always treated everybody, and especially Bishop Zurek and Father Tony, with the reverence and sincerity which come from God; indeed, for the honor of him who loves us, isn’t it proper to obey without hypocrisy those shepherds God has given me;…
…still, wouldn’t it be hypocrisy born of clericalism if my obedience was without calling out, “Woe to the shepherds
who mislead and scatter the flock of the Lord’s pasture“;…
…moreover, since, “The Lord is my shepherd; there is nothing I shall want“, why would I want to feed myself and my interests by covering myself with a comfortable life by hiding behind appearances of religiosity and even love for the Church by supporting a shepherd without a priestly spirit…
…who, without humility but with detached and haughty attitudes, uses Canon Law, “with its commandments and legal claims” to crush my brothers and sisters under his feet;…

…Therefore, Alleluia, alleluia;
since the Lord’s sheep hear his voice;
subsequently, he knows them, and they follow him;
Alleluia, alleluia;…
…shouldn’t I wonder how I can claim to be building a better future without thinking of clericalism and the sufferings of the excluded, who are like sheep without a shepherd❓